I was meant to write this on Sunday after fellowshipping with my friend at Elev8 Church, but we then started goofing off, and… well… here I am now.
I wrote a post about my complicated relationship with the church, and how I struggle with attitudes of some people who are meant to be my brothers and sisters in Christ. It really hit home a few weeks ago when I realised that a group of women I thought were my sisters in Christ were really snakes… yep, I said it, snakes. They would gossip about each other, and sowed such division in our group that I’m afraid to approach a few of my former friends now… because I don’t know what was said about me to them.
Nope… I think I’m done for now. Let me heal a bit. Ndaabho.
So how am I making it without going to church that much? I have my true friends whom I speak with, and I have my Bible. The Bible to me makes sense in a way I can’t explain, and knowing Jesus as God has been the most freeing thing for me. He was not concerned with the things that we as Christians are concerned with now. Eating without washing hands? Huh? What’s coming out of your mouth? What are you saying that is hurting your brother and sister? That’s what you should worry about. Traditions (even church traditions, thanks) are nullifying the word of God. Some of our church thingies actually are unbiblical, and He confronted that.
I’ve concluded that I don’t want to be a Christian, I want to be like Jesus. I want to follow Him, I want the Word to dwell richly in me and to be his representative here on earth. Because if the Word is anything to go by, you will know what is petty and what is important. You will know what brings life and death to a person, and that’s what will be important instead of silly things like did you ceremonially wash your hands, are you dressed correctly, and why do you have a tattoo?
Okay, this was not supposed to be my post, but it felt good to rant a bit. I was supposed to list my favourite Bible verses. The only one that comes to mind today, in light of my small rant is:
30 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.
31 The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these.”
So yeah, me and my Bible, the Holy Spirit and my few friends. It would be nice to find a new church home, one I actually feel at home. It’s been a pressing issue for me… and I kinda feel weird talking about it… but since I’ve been ranting already… pray for me. For now, I’m content with my little group of friends.
So… what are your favourite Bible verses? Or would you like to rant with me? It doesn’t really matter, my comments section is open. It doesn’t even have to be about church… I can always listen.
Until next time… your Quarter Wife.